Valentine's day
Roses everywhere, must be a Valentine's day...
I was pretty down for few hours listening about success story of other people close to my age and from my home town. I drifted back to the thought (oh the negativity!) that how everything I am doing is meaningless and futile.
It seemed only yesterday I took pleasure in attending my part time classes, because it seemed more constructive way of spending my time, then I did for past 6 months...which was doing nothing.
According to my little sister, I became furniture, a fixture in the house and I very much agreed.
Today being Valentine's day, I seriously looked into my social circle.
Even my mom, who is not very keen on socializing with others met up for a coffee with someone. My sister had her boy friend. I told momsy that "hey you have even more social life than your 20 something daughter, well-done" she gave me the pity look. I gave her an excuse that all my
friends (I'm not sure if they exist anymore to be honest) lived too far away.
Anyways, I was really tired for some reason and when I got on a bus, I closed my eyes and drifted in and out to sleep. My little sister with her boyfriend was there. And she later told me after much probing on my part that she didn't realize it was me, because of my negative atmosphere and once she recognized, she uttered little profanity and was too ashamed to introduce me to her boyfriend.
I didn't know I looked that bad, but apparently. I. was.
To be honest I think I looked pretty good. I had my hair up, contact lens and little bit of make up. But what my sister told me, my dark circle was highlight of my face which was full of blotchy stuff.
Anyway, I noticed that I felt really down,upset,depressed talking to momsy and dadsy during their coffee break. But after my sister's quick visit, I'm much more spirited.
Here is another thing that cheered me today:
God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me : Called you? No. Who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me : I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me : Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me : I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God : Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the
medium you are comfortable with.
Me : Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your
habit. That’s why you are not happy.
Me : But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me : But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty…
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me : If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer.
With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.
Me : You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me : But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?
God : PROBLEMS are
Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength.
Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me : Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading…
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken.
Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me : Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying
than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.Me : What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, “why me?” When they prosper, they never ask “Why me?” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me : How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Me : One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me : Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a
problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
credits to the blog I got this from - http://kgunner.in/
